Single or Couple?

May 23

Had lunch/drinks with Tim and Philip (together with the rest of the college
gang) yesterday. I was a bit off, I don't know if it was just my lack of
sleep (had only a total of four hours sleep from celebrating Luke's
birthday with the other guys) or if it it was just because they were drunk
and that I'm sober. It felt like they were on a different plane than mine.
I don't really mind the stories, it's just that when they become drunk,
stories get to be repeated and repeated.

It wasn't that I was envious of them. No, that's not it. I think it's
just the fact that they were discussing stuff they did as a couple didn't
really have that much of an impact in me coz I simply could not relate.
True, I haven't really had a serious relationship so I had nothing to base
whatever stories they tell me. Plus the fact that, as of now, I don't
think I'll be able to handle one - thus have no intentions of entering into
one.

I guess it's just that they're hanging out with other couples and me with
single guys just doesn't make out. I'm not going to deny that I do wish
that sometime I'll have a partner of my own and that I'll be able to have
dinner with friends who themselves have their own partners. It's a pretty
picture. Doesn't every guy want that?

But then again I'm generalizing once more. The pink community is so large
and diverse that the idea of weekend dinners is not for everyone. Plus,
for some reason I can't see myself hanging around with straight couples.
Especially those of my female friends.

But who knows? Maybe someday. For now I'm content of being single and
fabulous.