Apprehensive

Paris shared somethign to me regarding Daniel that made me think. I think I previously mentioned that Daniel tried quitting taking his meds in liue of trying to take control of his own emotions without their help. Anyway, during the first day he felt extremely lonely and called his ex, Cain. I guess he felt miserable about doing that. He told me this story a couple of days after the incident and added that he called Paris to ask for advice.

I felt both jealous and relieved at the time that Daniel talked to Paris at that time of need and not me.

During dinner yesterday, Paris however, let it slip that Daniel was apprehensive about calling me and talking about his problems. Well, what do you know the b*stard does have some feelings. I guess he finally bought a clue and figured out all those vacation times I asked were because of
something.

I just wonder if he really knew that those time outs where the time I had to recollect myself so that I wouldn't lose myself in him coz I would be falling in love with him again.

Bottomline, I'm still unsure if I'm happy about not being told or if whether it's better if I'm there for him...